I'm Lilith. I wear many hats. And by "hats" I mean "tiaras with horns."
She/her/hers. White queer femme fat disabled trans woman. Definitely not one of those nouveau pomo boho-a-go-go mofos.
Chicago police officers shot and killed 19-year-old Roshad McIntosh in the west side neighborhood of North Lawndale on August 24. His mother was at a press conference after a letter was delivered to the United States Justice Department calling on the federal government to come to the city and investigate crimes by police officers, who have escaped accountability and justice.
Dawn McIntosh, who was crying, declared, “My son was killed senselessly, and he shouldn’t have been. He was surrendering, and they shot him anyway.”
Also, she said, “He was on his knees with both hands up begging for his life. They killed him.”
“They wouldn’t let me see him,” McIntosh shared. “I still didn’t see him until yesterday when I identified his body. It’s not right. It’s not right. And I want justice served. I want justice served for that officer who took my son away.”
Roshad’s aunt, who did not provide her name, told those gathered that the police informed her “they needed to do an investigation.” She did not even get a chance to “say goodbye, kiss her baby and tell her baby how much she loved him.”
Dawn explained that she still doesn’t know the name of the officer, who shot her son.
“I don’t know of age, nothing. I don’t know what he looks like. But, if it was the other way around and somebody had killed the police officer, their name, their age, their address, their nationality, everything, where they’re from, their whole history would have been on the news,” she suggested.
Our fight does not begin nor end in Ferguson. Around the country many young black men and women are losing their lives to police brutality and excessive force. We cannot turn a blind eye to this. Fergson is not a singular event. Nor should our response to it be. Police brutality is an epidemic in the black and latino community and it needs to be stopped.
The information about the cop involved in this case still has not been released and all I can ask is who’s child will be next.
There was 2-3 different police involved shootings in the Chicago area within the past few days.
I’m sick. Physically ill. Why does this keep happening?
things that can make an autistic person’s life harder:
- NTs using “autistic” as an insult
- NTs jokingly saying “lol I’m so autistic” in reference to being socially awkward—e.g., NTs basically presenting autism as a big joke and/or thinking autism only has social aspects
things that do not make autistic people’s lives harder:
- autistic people who are self-diagnosed
- people who self-diagnose as autistic and later figure out they’re not actually autistic after all, and have some other condition that better accounts for their experiences
things you should do in response to encountering a person who has self-diagnosed as autistic:
- give them advice re coping mechanisms if they ask for it.
- if you want to not be a jerk about having doubts about their self-diagnosis, keep it to yourself. No one wants to be put on trial by a stranger and made to “prove” that they’re autistic.
- realize that lots of autistic folks choose to remain self-diagnosed because professional diagnosis is expensive and has drawbacks. drawbacks like potentially losing custody of your children, potentially losing (or being denied in the first place) approval for trans medical care, potentially losing a driver’s license, etc.
So I’ve had much trepidation in talking about this publicly much less in a ‘callout’ manner post. In recent weeks this has been much more of a triggering force within my life and despite any suppression it’s not going away.
two years ago, queer Olympia recording artist Princess Neptune (tumblr user parasiteprogram) facilitated and took part in sexually assaulting and raping me with her friend Dani Witherspoon. While we both consented to playing with them taking on a dominating role and myself submitting, I never consented to have cis-sexist and trans*misogynist insults. i never agreed to be told that I was a “man”, “ugly”, “could never be a woman”, or have any masculine traits of mine to be pointed out and ridiculed in the vulnerable state I was in. after the scene ended I received nothing in the way of aftercare, and cut any future communication in a okcupid message the following day telling me she hadn’t gotten off. this was at a time when I was closeted as a transwoman and presenting as a cis male. other than my loving boyfriend Emmett, Neptune was the only other person to know this as I had made it policy to come out to people I could see potentially dating. to say this incident set back my transition is an understatement.
I’m not writing this for recognition, validation, or out of spite. I need to be able to talk about this, and for the last two years I’ve felt suffocated by what happened to me to even acknowledge and doubt the events as I remember them. As this is still very much triggering subject for me, I will not be discussing this further, answering any questions or doubts, and won’t read any notes regarding this.
post script. i do not know Princess Neptune’s legal name. if you know it, please send me a message so I can alter this as needed.
please signal boost this if you’re at all able to.
Neptune / parasiteprogram is a rapist and a violent transmisogynist.
She is really popular in “radical” queer communities, both on and off of tumblr and we need to do our part in supporting survivors and not allowing abusers to be accepted in our circles.
she goes by aeon-fux now but yeah I keep seeing y’all reblog her and you should know that she’s a transmisogynist and a rapist. I keep seeing ppl say they “can’t find anything about it” so please signal boost this so people stop making excuses for rape apologism.
eldritchnightmarefuel said: Can you let people know inhouse pharmacy requires a prescription now? A lot of trans women are gonna be SOL :/
Ah fucking jesus. Do we know if there’s an alternative?
I dont know. Im so screwed. Im so so screwed.
HEy folks any of you know what to do?
Anyone? I’m freaking out a bit here. I really really don’t want to be forced to stop again.
oh SHIT, what about internationaldrugmart? i’ve used them before too. or inhousechemist?
Can anyone check on internationaldrugmart? I’m getting ready for work atm
okay! so it looks like international drug mart still DOES NOT REQUIRE A PRESCRIPTION. or, at least, it doesn’t appear to. i’ve used them before and had good experiences. so SPREAD THE WORD for this pharmacy as an alternative!!
International drug mart confirmed as not appearing to require a prescription!
Spread the word!
International drug mart is asking me for a prescription. :(
http://www.1truepharmacy.com It looks like it might be ok. The faq says they don’t need a prescription. It is a little more expensive then inhouse.
http://www.alldaychemist.com/ The FAQ says a prescription is needed for prescription drugs but it looks like they don’t enforce that except for narcotic painkillers. They’re cheaper but have a $25 flat shipping rate so you should buy in bulk if possible.Thanks!
Breathe and know there are still options as of July 8, 2014…
Reliablecanadianpharmacy sells estradiol valerate (Progynova). Their credit card accepting system is down, at least right now, and I don’t know when it will be back. You can give them your bank account and routing number and pay via something called eCheck. They will call you within a day to confirm the payment. They’ve been great in the past, answered all my questions, and never had problems with shipments. I don’t believe they have spironolactone, though.
1truepharmacy.com does have spironolactone and does not require prescription. Processed successfully 7/8/2014.
Ordered estradiol and spironolactone from alldaychemist.com. I believe they ask what medications you’re taking, allergies, and you can optionally enter a doctor’s name and phone number, but the order went through without that information. There is a $25 shipping charge. Never ordered from them before.
Ordered estradiol and spironolactone from internationaldrugmart.com. Order processed easily and successfully. Never ordered from them before.
Will update this post whenever I get new information and when shipments arrive.
If you learn of others that have been successful for you, let me know so I can add them to this list.